The Running Tally (…with only two months to go!)

Aquire a new tattoo or peircing
Beach in bikini
Climb a tree
D…(it’s a secret)
Enlarge colour range of wardrobe
Fit into size 12
Guitar playing at least once a week
Hang out with mel at least 20 times
Invent a recipe
Join a sport team
Kiss adventurously without being slutty
Learn french
Midnight rendevous
New glasses – frames and lenses
Obtain window for car
Paint Jo’s lab coat
Quit eating KFC, Macca’s and HJ’s alone
Road trip with Mel
Song about Va-jay-jay
Tan – fake or real
Upgrade job
Visit Melbourne and Traralgon
Write a song with Mel
Xpose myself @ Maslins
Yellow gold Jewellery
Zoo – Monarto

It’s a new dawn, and a new day, and a new life for me. And I’m feeling good.

So it’s a new year, and with it comes new resolutions! Last year I only crossed off 14 of my 26 resolutions which meant I lost out on the covetted ‘Resolutioner of the year’ trophy. But I’m feeling good about this year. Here is what I have to look forward too:

Aquire a new tattoo or peircing
Beach in bikini
Climb a tree
D…(it’s a secret)
Enlarge colour range of wardrobe
Fit into size 12
Guitar playing at least once a week
Hang out with mel at least 20 times
Invent a recipe
Join a sport team
Kiss adventurously without being slutty
Learn french
Midnight rendevous
New glasses – frames and lenses
Obtain window for car
Paint Jo’s lab coat
Quit eating KFC, Macca’s and HJ’s alone
Road trip with Mel
Song about Va-jay-jay
Tan – fake or real
Upgrade job
Visit Melbourne and Traralgon
Write a song with Mel
Xpose myself @ Maslins
Yellow gold Jewellery
Zoo – Monarto

Happy Resolutioning Ladies!!!

3 Months Left

I have just under three months left to finish off my New Years Resolutions. Some of them I already know I’m not going to do. and others will have to wait till the end of the year to be crossed off. At this point I have done exactly half of my resolutions. Here’s whats left, the ones with a line through them are the ones I’ve resigned myself to not doing for various reasons:

Bass Guitar Lessons Cup Holders For My Car Distinctions Jo’s Lab Coat Painted Kidnap Bek Learn Spanish Move out O-Party! Photos Daily Sing Better Undergo a Murder Mystery Party Xpose Myself At Maslins Zoo – Monarto

So, wish me luck! and hey, if you can help me with any of these let me know

K

How sad

Today while walking through a local shopping center I passed a girl I knew. At one time we would have been there together, casually walking through, perhaps getting some lunch, talking and laughing together as close friends do. Today she was with someone else. I was on my own. We caught eachother’s eyes. I gave a small wave and a courteous smile as if she were a mere acquaintance. In response, she did the same. We both continued on our way without so much as pausing briefly for the other.

“How sad.” I thought.

“How very sad.”

K

There were 3

There were three in the bed and the little one said

“Roll over! Roll over!”

So they all rolled over and one fell out.

Ouch!

Trust

Dictionary.com defines it as

–noun

1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

I trust that the sun will rise each morning, though I rarely see it happen. I trust my parents will always love me. I trust my puppy will too. I trust my car to get me from A to B. I trust my lecturers will teach me the things I need to know. Sometimes I even trust the saleswoman when she tells me my bum doesn’t look big in those pants.

There is one person I find it hard to trust. The one person I suppose I should trust after all we’ve been through together. We grew so much together. Shared lives, homes, friends. We shared secrets curled up in my quilt on my front lawn under the stars late one night. There in that moment was trust.

But, times have changed. We have changed. Lives have changed. I’ve come to realize I can’t trust someone who doesn’t trust me. Think about it. If you don’t trust someone you hide, you lie, you deceive all in order to keep some sense of security I suppose. So now when asking a question instead of expecting an answer I expect a half-truth. And most of the time my expectations ring true.

Thats’s not to say that it isn’t in some way my doing. I’ve contributed my share of deceit and bitterness. I’ve pushed away when I should have drawn closer, let it go when i should have probed deeper.

But, I can’t be expected to constantly put myself out on the line when I anticipate I’ll be left to fall.

K

In The Silence….

…He says

“Little Garden how do I make your flowers grow?

When I already do everything that I know.

I bring you sunshine, and I bring you rain.

But sti-i-ill you refrain.

All the other Gardens are so full of flowers.

They’re so colourful, yet I spend all these hours

trying to make you as beautiful as them.

But sti-i-i-ill you refrain.”

I hear it over and over. Until the other guy says…

“Little Girl why are you crying?

Just because the flowers in your Garden are dying.

There’s so much that you could be doing,

and all of your neighbours well they haven’t got a clue.

Oh come on with me we’ll have a little bit of fun.

It’s not to dangerous and we won’t hurt anyone yeah

We’ll cause some havoc between the birds and the bees.

We’ll paint the town red and we’ll shake the trees.

Come on with me and I’ll show you a good time.

All you have to do is a jump and a climb.

I’ll take you over to the other side of town.

Where there’s so much to do there,

and nobody wears a crown.”

There’s hope for me yet…

“This little girl she grew up and moved away and she,

she lived her life full of risk and full of play and she,

she lived her life with so much to say,

and her flowers they grow more beautiful every day.”

-K

The Nicest Thing

All I know is that you’re so nice.

You’re the nicest thing I’ve seen.

I wish that we could give it a go,

see if wee could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl.

I wish you thought I was the reason you were in the world.

I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile.

I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn’t figure me out,

but you’d always wanna know what I was about

I wish you’d hold my hand, when I was upset.

I wish you’d never forget,

the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot,

that you loved secretly, cuz it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.

Basically,

I wish that you loved me.

I wish that you needed me.

I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,

actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break.

I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake.

I wish that without me you couldn’t eat.

Yeah, I wish I was the last thing on you mind before you went to sleep.

Look, all I know is that you’re the nicest thing I’ve seen.

And I wish we could see if we could be something.

Yeah, I wish we could see if we could be something.

- Kate Nash

Hmmm, Love and Desperation…

A work in progess…

Inspired by a recent trip to the core of the earth! (or so it seemed, it took so long)

The road is long and dirty

But it’s not without it’s charm.

The bright blue sky above us

And the trees out-stretching arms.

The land rolls on forever

And as I think about this place

All it needs is your sustaining grace.

 

The dust, I see it dancing

Across the red earth plains.

As it’s picked up by the winds

And neglected by the rain.

But somehow, still there’s life out here

And against all odds they cope.

Without you they continue to lose hope…

A definate resolve

My friends and I continued our tradition (three years young) of meeting together on new years day at a coffee place on the beach to come up with resolutions for the year to come. This year I sense within myself a greater resolve to see my resolutions through. I feel as though something has to give this year, something must change! Last year was great, and brought with it a clearer path for my future and a greater understanding of myself. I hope that this year will bring much more achievement and organization in terms of work, home and finances.

We decided this year we’d go ‘all out’ like the first and make up a resolution for each letter of the alphabet. 26 resolutions, some meaningful and some just down-right crazy! I’ll leave you with just a few:

Alter my hair     Distinctions at Tafe     Get tattoo     Kidnap Bek

Learn Spanish      Photos – Daily Journal      Quit Dominos      Try some nuts

Visit Melbourne

and I’d be happy to share the rest with anyone who’s interested.

-K